Lace, fruitcake and tangerine a year later...
Lace I wake up at 4am on the day when the 'putting away' would have been completed with headache, nausea. The year shraad has been completed. I am grateful that all cleaning done in time, all rituals completed even in the sadness as another chacha has died. The two night satsangh was good but the memories of all the other janjhat come back and stress manifested itself You would not be pleased that I decided to just stay away from the rest of the funeral rites for the chacha, but this year, this time, I do not want headache and nausea. Moving around 4am and I decide, yep. put back the lace tablecloth and the red Christmas placemats. Last year, the table was bare, no cloth, but some of the items needed to provide the care to you in your last days. Today as I write this a year later , remembering at this time you had pulled out the feeding tube, refusing all food, and then Yamraj took you Christmas Eve night. So 4am on the putting away day, I clean the table and so, and