I did not vote in Guyana's Elections 2020 but..

I did not vote in Guyana's Elections 2020 but ...

• I see that a few of the palm seeds and mango seeds and other seeds that are falling in the yard are germinating 
• I am fascinated and want to know more more about the Russians and the Libyan who came to Guyana, stayed at the Marriot and were deported.. I mean.. the Jason Bourne in me knows that us agents of mischief go and hide in safe houses and come in undercover and so on.. , like how the Brazillian landed at Rumzeight.. 
• I remembern the elections specialist telling me before the elections that verification is not really required, should not be required since everybody has a copy of the statements of poll and adding should be straightforward so the verification process is part of trust building.. not required by law.And I go check the law , and realise that they didn't legislate trust and love and transparency and dem tings
• I have to figure out a way to extract these two seedlings from the concrete cracks 
• I am sickened that Justice Claudette Singh was not visible or available and that some of my supposedly sensible PNC social media friends say she was being 'protected' while others tell me she was being held hostage.  
• I am also amused because that is how dictators have worked in other places.. imprisoning/ protecting Constitutional officials under house arrest . I hope Justice Singh is healthy and well.
• I am glad for the rain, I know climate change is serious.
• I am shocked at the racism on the social media even though I expected it
• I am unfriending and unfollowing people on social media who I think would know better and not be divisive
• I am not unfriending and not unfollowing people on social media who are making posts and comments which are racists and irrational as I expected them to do so anyway.
• I am seeing the feral blasts at the foreign observers and missions who said Thursday's results not credible, at least one thing in common between PPP and PNC .. the rejection of the white and brown and black people who say things which they don't agree with
• I go back to 2006, 2011 , 2015 to figure out what I was doing during the times when I waited for elections results and I was working and doing things and not bothering
• I have to prepare to heal with the people who surprised me with their divisive social media activities and I am meditating that my soul and their souls are sparks of the divine
• I need to figure out why I can't bend like I used to, why my body is in pain and how to get ready for middle age,
• I am relieved when I see some people who know better , are doing better, and others who I did not expect to do anything, are doing something to see that the elections are free and fair and to condemn the madness. I know that I am not separate from the madness but surviving it means being distant from it
• I see glimpses of the inside of the Ashmin's building with its balconies and staircases and so, and it looks so beautiful setting for the drama.. I am not really looking at the play by play thing but I could imagine how the loud voices must have echoed, and so
• I am Hindu, and whether I like it or not, I am one, no separation,  with the PPP and the PNC, with the people who voted and who did not vote and with the people who condemned me for being voting. I am one with the woman who said I am a racial PPP supporter for not voting
• I want to offer to go scan the statements of poll in the hands of everybody, put them on a website and go sit at the Umana Yana with some people who did not vote,  and do a comparison and so and count up. but I know the outcome will be same, the joy and the despair and the oil money which will take long to trickle down,  and I realise it would be better for me to sort out these seedlings, transplant them, give them away and hope that they can be planted and grow nicely and everybody will be at least happy.