The blessing of the unexpected surya namaskara in the evening...

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Evening chores in progress. Some time lapse as I have to wait between two sets of chores.

I could go sit down and look out the window. I am shaking my back a bit as I walk, and I realise that there isn't as much pain as usual. I have not had pain tablets. I had two B complex.

I was scared to go down on the old bed sheet to do the yoga routine earlier in the day. Previous attempts had failed as I could not go through.

Today though, I  was able to go through most of the yoga asanas  though not reaching full stretches for most of them. But still.. better than nothing.

I think right, while I wait.. let me see,s the surya namaskar

Just one round or two rounds, I know that my foot no longer comes up as it used to and I would feel disappointed.  I used to do 36 rounds in the morning.

Aum Mitraya Namah
 I bend forward, my back is stiff and my fingers are not reaching the ground. I think, arite.. is just two rounds.. bend the knee, and go through.  I have been trying not to talk politics with the patient as I have tuned out to get through these days.  I should be breathing.

Foot does not reach the position so I have to kind of step it.

I complete the round. Arite one more and done.


Aum Ravayre Namah

Finger tips manage to reach the ground. I had forgotten that sometimes I used to have to warm up. I do the round ,  foot reaches the position. I am like.. wait wait what?  I can still do this? 

What else can I do then.. , I am feeling that all is not lost..




Aum Suryaya Namah

I still have to wait before resuming the chores.., okay, do another one.. I do it and come up.. I don't stumble. It is not smooth.. , I am not breathless.. breathing seems to work. I am trying to shift my mind from 'no this is not true'.. to focus as I used to do back in the day.


Aum Bhanave Namah
And I go down again, still cant put palms flat on the ground but I remember that I had a glass of water and maybe stomach is a bit full. I think, arite stop now, you want to sleep through the night.. the last time I did Surya Namaskar in the evening, it was like a mix of coffee (and viagra.. ) and I kept rolling in the bed all night .






Aum Khagaya Namah
Back is not the problem, I know mind is the problem. I think okay.. the next set of chores to be done.. but still a few minutes before you could start.. let me finish six rounds.

Aum Pushne Namah
Sixth round.. done.. I feel okay, a bit of sweat.. but not feeling tired. Is it the two B complex? The ochro? The carilla? The pine tart and chinese cake which I did not want to eat? The tea with the lime peel for the first time?


Aum Hiranyagarbhaya Namah
Arite,, you got this far, go for number 7, stop if you feel like .

Aum Marichaye Namah
Finish one more.. , even number




Right, I could go on with the next set of chores.. but why not try.. finish it, and to hell with sleep tonight..


Aum Adityaya Namah
 You can stop at any time.. go down again.. you have done more than you intended






Aum Savitre Namah

Wait.. I am doing this again.. this reminds me.. of the mornings long ago, sometimes after a morning run.. , I need to get on with the chores..




But Vidya, come on.. three more rounds.. and you could celebrate... yes,, this is weird, you have not done both routines in the same day in years.. 
 
Aum Arkaya Namah
Hustle, up breathe.. come on .. move through.. , two more.... should I go to the seawall and try running again? Knees and feet would collapse I know.. b
 
Aum Bhaskaraya Namah
 One more...I hope I don't get the back pain tomorrow..., I hope I can sleep tonight..


Aum Shree SavitraSuryNarayanaya Namah 

Dear Universe, I can't believe this, I have done this in 15 minutes., in the evening.. I have not done this in years.. the last time I stumbled through.. had to pause between each round.. took me 30 , 40 minutes.. walking in between to catch breath.. .. thank you, thank you

No time to rest,, patient is waiting on the rest of the chores.. I sail through.. in wonder.. , going through in my head everything which got me to this point when up to a day ago I could not even start..

But.. letting go of this, not holding on to it, like when I used to run the two miles or more easily, then could not run, then could run

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