Cucumber (and ginger) juice to start 2018...

Wake up and think that is another day, nothing magical has happened and the old stuff did not disappear. First conversations result in the confusion and cloudiness which characterises life now in trying to deal with duties which become more challenging and which leave the mind blank for a long time after.

Random gift of four cucumbers, surplus from a farm and thinking that it would take too much effort to eat them. Cut them up and blend them with the skin, and put in some ginger. Hint of ginger needed.  It  feels nice, like healthy to contrast with the sugar and the tin of biscuits and the inability to exercise.

Feels good to do a new thing , positive. It is funny how juice was the stimulus for wellness for the last post of 2017,  and juice for the first post for 2018. Underlying issues dominate.

Mind has to exercise in a way, stretch. Conversation about poetry and some art with an artist helped to move the mind. I manage conversations with other people, being positive and useful. I think of how I could have dealt with other conversations from which I had to back off from, but a lesson now is that night follows day quickly and there is less and less time and energy to look back.

 Work is becoming due, and thoughts have to be organised to get things done.

One work issue needs a complete transformation and I keep reaching into the depths of my mind hoping that the spark which says try blending cucumber juice with the skin and ginger will also spark the creativity to do the transformation.

Part of me says wait until the time passes and do what you could do, ask for time off.. the other part is impatient and frustrated that things are not being done which should be done

But there is potential that the space between despair and patience is left to do things. like making cucumber (and ginger) juice and creating and doing other useful things.