Pumpkin, bhaji, channa soup and mindfulness

When energy is low and the mood says just do nothing, there is something about the effort required to wander around the market and get the ingredients for the soup.

The flavour was remembered but not the recipe and with a mind that part says what the hell, whatever comes out I will eat it; and another that says.. come on man, try, try..
And so it is.. the preparation.. picking and washing the bhaji leaves, going and dig the tumeric plants and chipping and getting the hands and everything else yellow,
the pumpkin to be peeled and chunked up, thyme to be torn from the stem and the rest put into the freezer, the ginger to be peeled and chipped and seller cursed for having what seems to be imitation ginger, and sweet peppers cutting, and onion and garlic and celery.. sweet potato peeled.. yeah this soup satisfies the sweet craving .. the pumpkin and sweet potato and the channa ..

Everything.. slowly, it is like feeling each thing, using the sharp knife, and being happy that you can get everything in the pressure with one too much wiri wiri and then leave for 10 minutes and then even though it is watery, it makes your nose run and your body sweat.. but success.. success now which can be lived over because there is enough in the fridge for another five or six servings for the Navratra vege "fasting.."

Meanwhile.. you start wondering.. is there something else wrong.. the fatigue which does not lead to sleep, the back stiffness which has to be eased before the yoga can be done and the feeling that another kind of job is required which is about movement but not back breaking labour because the back like it is cracked.

A man asks about the reasons for the depression and you have to explain again there is no reason really... rather than reasons it is more important to figure out ways of managing so that  loosening the body and ignoring the pain to get through a yoga routine, or making soup are the things to do rather than worry about reasons.