Sweet biscuit binging and nutmeg in tea..

Craving there for de small packets of four sweet biscuit.. vanilla, strawberry, chocolate, big 4.. but you say no no until you pass the shop and you let go because is either you succumb to this or you let things fall apart.

You know it not right to fall for the temptations.. but somethings just gotta give.

And so you start with a lemonade.. in one shop .. and you tink arite.. but you go to anodda shop and get a Recrerdo fake oreo. Gums are brusing where the teeth no longer exist but you dont care because is only this time.. and then you go into another shop and you ask for a pack of festival cookies - and de lady bring you strawberry and you remember de loved one who no longer talk to you who like strawberry biscuits and you laff.

In teking out de money to pay fuh de strawberry festival biscuit..  and de empty pack from de previous biscuit come out and you hide it back in shame because you aint want de lady fuh tink dat dis man crazy..

you tink dat is enuff.. but de cravings continue and in de night you go to de supermarket and you pick up four or five packs of de four in a pack sweet biscuit.. de cure really.. and den you eat dem one after anodda after anodda after anodda slow slow slow.. because de mouth can't chew fast enuff or de gums will hurt and you cant chew more..

now I write dis and i wonder now how some addicts get their liquor no question asked or dere drugs of choice no questions asked

i pass de chocolate shelves.. yeah.. i aint doing bad.. some kind of responsibility is dere..

so i feel sick after eating.. the cravings satisfied ...

mek lil tea wid nutmeg in it.. it might keep me awake.. de sugah in it will keep de cloud away..

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